New Year's Eve!!!

Wow, I can't even believe that it's the last day of 2009! Where has the last decade gone?! I am happy to say that my New Year's resolution won't be to join a gym...already done that! I think my resolution is that I want to take better care of myself. I am a mother of 4 children and I am always taking care of them. Making sure they eat healthy, don't watch too much t.v., get outside to play, take a regular bath...now I want to do that for myself. I think most mom's don't do it because it's like having another child to take care of...it's one more thing we have to do. Don't get me wrong, I haven't been walking around like a slob or anything, but I have grown a little lax.
I am feeling happier and stronger everyday. I am so sore today and I love that feeling. It means all of my hard work is paying off. Tonight we are having a party and I am cooking the biggest Turkey I have ever seen! Yummy Protein! I have been doing so good on my eating, even my husband has been surprised! I am excited for a new year...the only thing I hate is that my children are going to be a year older! I love them at these ages and wish I could hold on to these years forever. I love my children very much and would do anything for them. I hope they can grow into strong women who can love themselves for who they are. I need to be a better example to them. That is my main motivation for losing weight, is so I can be a better mother and show my girl's that anything is possible!
Goal for today: -Don't go crazy with all of the "to do's" on my list. Enjoy the day with all of my family at home!

Discovery

I have discovered that Papa Murphy's pizza is the Devil!!!! I just can't get enough of their deLite Chicken Mediteranian Herb Pizza...with it's olive oil, chicken, sun-dried tomatoes, and spinach....except that it keeps making me feel so sick! Don't worry, I threw the rest of it away this morning because I don't want to be sick for a 3rd night in a row! I made up for my transgressions of eating two pieces for lunch yesterday by skipping dinner. Now that it is gone, I can move forward with today in peace and harmony!
Goals for the day: -Gym(check that off, I already hit it hard this morning! I was sweating like a pig!) - No pitzels!(a delicious italian cookie that my grandmother made for me) -put all the laundry away -Take a nap and rest - Let the kids go play out in the snow

p.s. just incase you were wondering, my goals are actually getting accomplished each day and the goals for the day are really helping me. This morning my trainer told me that he can tell I am starting to thin out....hopefully the scale agrees with him this week!!!

Bad Habits

Well, I was all pumped to do good yesterday, and I did, but I have realized that bad habits are hard to kill! I instantly went to dive into a tin of butter cookies that we got for Christmas and two cookies into it, I threw them away. I also ate one too many pieces of my deLite pizza last night and I thought I was going to throw up! I was so sick all night! The upside is that I am learning that it's not worth it, and my body is helping me realize it even faster! I am starting to get full off of less food, which is a great sign. I was so super busy yesterday and it felt great. BUT because I was so sick last night I ended up sleeping in this morning and I missed the gym. I am so sore from working with my p.t. yesterday, so I think today will be a stretch and play the Wii day. I am determined to eat good today and not slip back into bad habits just because I am home.
Goals for today: -Take A Nap!!! -stretch - play the Wii with my hubby -have fun with my kids today!

Back and ready to Roll!

Well, I am back and I can say that I survived our trip! I found a Rec. Center and went to work out while I was gone and I resisted so many treats and junk that came my way. I was so surprised at how easy it was to say no. I did let myself have a few, but nothing compared to what I normally would have eaten. I ate more salad and chicken than I have in a long time. My trainer told me the average weight gain over the holidays is 8 lbs. I can tell you that I actually lost weight this week! Only 1 lb. but it's better than gaining 8! I am feeling really great and I hope I can make it through New Year's. I am having a big New Year's Eve party and I think I'll cook a turkey so I have some good protein to eat,mmmmmm, with a big Caesar Salad! I discovered a delicious Lite dressing that I can use and ofcourse, I will be hitting the gym every day. The kids are home this week and today we have a TON of cleaning to do. I better get started while they are sleeping. So, Here are my goals for today:
-Gym -Scriptures -Laundry -Cleaning out toy room -Take kids to a movie -Clean the bathrooms

Ridiculous!

Okay, this is ridiculous! I have been with my P.T. for 5 weeks and I have not dropped one pound! I went in late today, on accident, and I ended up just talking with him to see what I can do. He suggested that I really stay on my food journal and try to eat a 2:1 ratio with my protein and carbs. Do you know how hard that is??? With 2 protein shakes and 2 protein bars a day, I am at best 1.7:1 . So, I am coming to my faithful readers for suggestions. Do you know a better protein bar I can try? What are some really good sources of protein with little carbs? Give me some recipes, ANYTHING that can help me reach this goal. It's going to be hard with Christmas this week, but I have to do it. I am sick of staying the same! Help!!!!

p.s. tomorrow will be the last time I write until after christmas. We are leaving tomorrow for the rest of the week. Merry Christmas!

TGIF

Hurray for friday! I bought an extra session with my P.T. so I actually had to go to the gym this morning and I feel great. Yesterday turned out to be an okay day. I did good until dinner. My husband thought the pork chops I was planning to cook have been in the fridge for too long (he is so paranoid about meat going bad), so he came home with pizza instead. Thank you honey for thinking of our well-being, but the pizza did me in! I actually got all of my christmas baking done, but I still haven't wrapped any presents. I keep putting it off. I will probably get it done on Sunday during my kids 2 hour nap that they usually take. SO.......
Goals for today: Gym, Shower, Finish Christmas shopping, clean house (my mother-in-law is coming), and tonight I will have the house to myself for a while, so I am going to get all of my dance stuff together for tomorrow so I will be completely prepared. I am a little nervous about my dance show, but I have done all I can do. It's up to the kids now. Oh, and last goal, NO SWEETS!

Thursday...dun dun Dun!!!!

Why are Thursdays always such a hard day for me? I think it's because it's a turning day. It's the day that decides if I have a good weekend or a bad weekend. If I eat good and exercise on Thursday, I can guarnatee I will do good over the weekend. BUT, if I do bad, the rest of the weekend is a bust!
I haven't been going to the gym on Thursdays lately. Not that I don't want to, but something else usually ends up happening. Last week I got up to go and ended up starting my laundry instead. This morning, my hubby and I ended up talking in bed. It's like Thurday mornings end up being mine. I can do anything I want before the kids get up. I do feel a little guilty staying home, but then after I get so much done, I am grateful for my Thursday mornings. So, as I start my day today I am determined to make it a good Thursday! I have plenty to do to keep me busy. Todays Goals:
- Do my Wii Fit...I still need to exercise
- Read Scriptures
- Do laundry and actually fold it!
- Make christmas treats for neighbors and friends
I know the last one sounds dangerous, but I am only making poppy seed muffins, so the worst that could happen is that I eat one. I am taking the kids to see Santa tonight, I have to make my kids practice their dances,I have to go to Sears, we have to do two houses tonight for our twelve days of Christmas since we missed last night, and I have a choir practice tonight. AND I need to start wrapping christmas presents! I have a lot to do today! I better get busy!

A new day!

Hello world! I am here and I'm happy and feeling good! I did so great yesterday and I am always happy when I do that! I had a big lunch, so I had a delicious blueberry smoothie last night for dinner and I hit the hay at 8:30! Ridiculous I know, but I was falling asleep on the way home from Walmart last night, so Kyle made me go to bed. Sorry honey, today I will get to that nap.
I worked with Rote today (that's the name of my p.t.) and then 30 minutes on the E.T. I am sore but feeling good.
Goals for today: Gym, Scriptures, NAP, eat light because we have a dinner to go to tonight, and wrap christmas presents.

Yesterday

Okay, yesterday I was so busy! I went shopping in the morning, lunch, more shopping, I crashed on the couch for an hour, dinner, FHE, took Kyle to his office to get some papers, put kids to bed, movie with my hubby, asleep on the couch at 11! I didn't even have time to think about eating!
Today probably won't be as busy, but it already feels like it is. I have already been to the gym and to Walmart this morning! I have to take the kids to school and then go look at Kyle's christmas gift that I want to get him. I teach dance today and have a r.s meeting tonight.
Goal for today: Gym
No Sweets
Scriptures
NAP!

Jenna

Jenna is my sister-in-law. What would I do without her?! She is my faithful reader and commentor and is always so supportive. Thank you Jenna for being there for me...even though you live so far away!
Okay people. Last night I went back to the beginning of my blog and I read my old posts. They were so full of optimism! So full of positive feelings! I have forgotten that I made a vow of no sweets for a year and that I would blog everyday. I have lost my purpose for this blog and I need to get back on track. SO, I have decided to make a new vow....a vow for the day, since that is the farthest I can promise right now...
Today's vow: No sweets..Go to the gym..read my scriptures..and do my Wii Fit for 1/2 an hour.

I already hit the gym today, so check that off the list. I am just going to focus on today and make it through each day one at a time. I am worth it and I want to be happy.

Thanks Jenna for always reminding me of that!

Waaahhh!

I have had a crappy weekend! Man, I hate this. I haven't been writing as much because I have been feeling so guilty. Once again, I do so good the first part of the week, but once Thursday comes....I'm doomed. This week I didn't even make it to the gym on Thursday or Friday! Then Kyle made brownies and bought ice cream.....I was doomed again!!! I don't even want to weigh in tomorrow. I am so sick of doing this and doing this and doing this. You know the movie Ground Hogs Day?? That is how my week is...I end up doing the same thing over and over. It makes me so mad at myself!!! I work so hard and then I eat crap and ruin everything!
You know, I really think I am like a drug addict. I am so addicted to it, but I know that it is bad for me and not worth it. I keep telling Kyle that I need 24 hour supervision for a while, but there isn't anyone to help me. I miss my mom being able to come stay for a month or just to be able to call her. I really need help and I don't know what to do. Now I have to see my mother in just over a week and I'm still going to be fat and that's all I'm going to hear about and how I am just not trying hard enough and blah, blah, blah! What am I going to do? Anyone?

Today

Well, I didn't make it to the gym this morning, but I actually enjoyed having the morning to myself at home. I read my scriptures in peace and started laundry. It was really nice. I am super sore from my trainer and I feel like I am doing good. We'll see what the scale says next Monday. I just have to keep it up this weekend. This is a short post today. I have a lot to do.

weigh in...sorry

Sorry this is late, but I told you I knew what it would be...174. It's ridiculous! BUT I had a bad week with Thanksgiving, so I should be happy I stayed the same. Also, I am newly motivated by the opportunity of a half marathon in May! Kyle thinks I am nuts, but I have always wanted to do it. I know I can't do a whole one, so I think I am going to start working towards the half one in Ogden on May 15. That gives me 6 months. I tried running this morning and I ran 2 miles in 30 minutes! WAYYY bad, but considering I walked most of it AND it's been over 5 years since I ran last, I think it went okay. This month will be getting up to 2 miles without stopping...we are really going to have to see about this and I am still scared to register, but I also can't stop thinking about the last episode of Biggest Loser that I watched. It was a "where are they now" episode and a whole group of past contestants ran a half marathon and this big lady, who is still big ran it and finished. I think if she can do it, so can I! Anyone want to train with me???!!!!

Doom's Day

Tomorrow is my new weigh in day, since weighing in on Sundays just made me too depressed to go to church. Anyway, I've been doing good. I made it to the gym 4 out of 5 days, and the 1 day i didn't go was because the day before I had worked with my P.T. , spent the rest of the day lifting heavy objects and cleaning a resaraunt, I taught dance, and by the time I went to choir practice that night, I thought I was going to faint! I was exhausted! There was no way I was going to get up and make it to the gym the next morning.
Tomorrow I weigh in, work with my P.T., go over my food journal with him for the first time (I realized I ate a lot of spaghetti this week) and then I have to bake and cook like a mad lady. I am making all of our neighbors and friends my yummy poppy-seed cake for christmas and my neighbor is having surgery, so I am making them a lasagna to put in their freezer. If I am making one for them, I need to make one for us too. Kyle loves lasagna. I will report my weigh in tomorrow, but I can already tell you it is going to be the same...stupid 174. I think I'll drink a lot of water tonight, so I can "cleanse" in the morning!