I have had a crappy weekend! Man, I hate this. I haven't been writing as much because I have been feeling so guilty. Once again, I do so good the first part of the week, but once Thursday comes....I'm doomed. This week I didn't even make it to the gym on Thursday or Friday! Then Kyle made brownies and bought ice cream.....I was doomed again!!! I don't even want to weigh in tomorrow. I am so sick of doing this and doing this and doing this. You know the movie Ground Hogs Day?? That is how my week is...I end up doing the same thing over and over. It makes me so mad at myself!!! I work so hard and then I eat crap and ruin everything!
You know, I really think I am like a drug addict. I am so addicted to it, but I know that it is bad for me and not worth it. I keep telling Kyle that I need 24 hour supervision for a while, but there isn't anyone to help me. I miss my mom being able to come stay for a month or just to be able to call her. I really need help and I don't know what to do. Now I have to see my mother in just over a week and I'm still going to be fat and that's all I'm going to hear about and how I am just not trying hard enough and blah, blah, blah! What am I going to do? Anyone?
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You know what is even worst...my friend who is doing this diet where she only eats 500 cal. a day and takes these drops, has already lost 35 lbs. in two months!!! It makes me sick!
ReplyDeleteI look at your blog every day because I know how important it is to have someone watching your progress. If you write every day, then maybe you'll feel accountable every day. In fact, I've been worried about you because of 1) the holiday, 2) the lack of blog posts.
ReplyDeleteI've been eating like a pig since we moved and then this weekend I did all of my holiday baking--gingerbread men, chocolate-mint cookies, pumpkin bread, and harvest loaf. Plus I couldn't leave the extra mint candies from the cookies and I've been systematically gobbling them down. I also haven't been working out because I just got out of the habit when we moved.
But tomorrow is a new day--and a new week--and a new me. I'm really going to try to get a move on!
As much as you feel like you're not going anywhere, remember the few pounds that you HAVE lost. And remember that your workouts are doing more for your body than just weight.
Here's to us and a new resolve to do what is right for our bodies!
Jenna