A new day!

Hello world! I am here and I'm happy and feeling good! I did so great yesterday and I am always happy when I do that! I had a big lunch, so I had a delicious blueberry smoothie last night for dinner and I hit the hay at 8:30! Ridiculous I know, but I was falling asleep on the way home from Walmart last night, so Kyle made me go to bed. Sorry honey, today I will get to that nap.
I worked with Rote today (that's the name of my p.t.) and then 30 minutes on the E.T. I am sore but feeling good.
Goals for today: Gym, Scriptures, NAP, eat light because we have a dinner to go to tonight, and wrap christmas presents.

Yesterday

Okay, yesterday I was so busy! I went shopping in the morning, lunch, more shopping, I crashed on the couch for an hour, dinner, FHE, took Kyle to his office to get some papers, put kids to bed, movie with my hubby, asleep on the couch at 11! I didn't even have time to think about eating!
Today probably won't be as busy, but it already feels like it is. I have already been to the gym and to Walmart this morning! I have to take the kids to school and then go look at Kyle's christmas gift that I want to get him. I teach dance today and have a r.s meeting tonight.
Goal for today: Gym
No Sweets
Scriptures
NAP!

Jenna

Jenna is my sister-in-law. What would I do without her?! She is my faithful reader and commentor and is always so supportive. Thank you Jenna for being there for me...even though you live so far away!
Okay people. Last night I went back to the beginning of my blog and I read my old posts. They were so full of optimism! So full of positive feelings! I have forgotten that I made a vow of no sweets for a year and that I would blog everyday. I have lost my purpose for this blog and I need to get back on track. SO, I have decided to make a new vow....a vow for the day, since that is the farthest I can promise right now...
Today's vow: No sweets..Go to the gym..read my scriptures..and do my Wii Fit for 1/2 an hour.

I already hit the gym today, so check that off the list. I am just going to focus on today and make it through each day one at a time. I am worth it and I want to be happy.

Thanks Jenna for always reminding me of that!

Waaahhh!

I have had a crappy weekend! Man, I hate this. I haven't been writing as much because I have been feeling so guilty. Once again, I do so good the first part of the week, but once Thursday comes....I'm doomed. This week I didn't even make it to the gym on Thursday or Friday! Then Kyle made brownies and bought ice cream.....I was doomed again!!! I don't even want to weigh in tomorrow. I am so sick of doing this and doing this and doing this. You know the movie Ground Hogs Day?? That is how my week is...I end up doing the same thing over and over. It makes me so mad at myself!!! I work so hard and then I eat crap and ruin everything!
You know, I really think I am like a drug addict. I am so addicted to it, but I know that it is bad for me and not worth it. I keep telling Kyle that I need 24 hour supervision for a while, but there isn't anyone to help me. I miss my mom being able to come stay for a month or just to be able to call her. I really need help and I don't know what to do. Now I have to see my mother in just over a week and I'm still going to be fat and that's all I'm going to hear about and how I am just not trying hard enough and blah, blah, blah! What am I going to do? Anyone?

Today

Well, I didn't make it to the gym this morning, but I actually enjoyed having the morning to myself at home. I read my scriptures in peace and started laundry. It was really nice. I am super sore from my trainer and I feel like I am doing good. We'll see what the scale says next Monday. I just have to keep it up this weekend. This is a short post today. I have a lot to do.

weigh in...sorry

Sorry this is late, but I told you I knew what it would be...174. It's ridiculous! BUT I had a bad week with Thanksgiving, so I should be happy I stayed the same. Also, I am newly motivated by the opportunity of a half marathon in May! Kyle thinks I am nuts, but I have always wanted to do it. I know I can't do a whole one, so I think I am going to start working towards the half one in Ogden on May 15. That gives me 6 months. I tried running this morning and I ran 2 miles in 30 minutes! WAYYY bad, but considering I walked most of it AND it's been over 5 years since I ran last, I think it went okay. This month will be getting up to 2 miles without stopping...we are really going to have to see about this and I am still scared to register, but I also can't stop thinking about the last episode of Biggest Loser that I watched. It was a "where are they now" episode and a whole group of past contestants ran a half marathon and this big lady, who is still big ran it and finished. I think if she can do it, so can I! Anyone want to train with me???!!!!

Doom's Day

Tomorrow is my new weigh in day, since weighing in on Sundays just made me too depressed to go to church. Anyway, I've been doing good. I made it to the gym 4 out of 5 days, and the 1 day i didn't go was because the day before I had worked with my P.T. , spent the rest of the day lifting heavy objects and cleaning a resaraunt, I taught dance, and by the time I went to choir practice that night, I thought I was going to faint! I was exhausted! There was no way I was going to get up and make it to the gym the next morning.
Tomorrow I weigh in, work with my P.T., go over my food journal with him for the first time (I realized I ate a lot of spaghetti this week) and then I have to bake and cook like a mad lady. I am making all of our neighbors and friends my yummy poppy-seed cake for christmas and my neighbor is having surgery, so I am making them a lasagna to put in their freezer. If I am making one for them, I need to make one for us too. Kyle loves lasagna. I will report my weigh in tomorrow, but I can already tell you it is going to be the same...stupid 174. I think I'll drink a lot of water tonight, so I can "cleanse" in the morning!