Shut my mouth...

...slap your grandma. I need a big slap right now. Why am I so stupid??? I did Not do good yesterday and it was because I am stupid stupid stupid.
Goal for today: -Don't be Stupid!

I'm tryin to find a word to describe this girl.....

...without bein disrespectful...sexy chick! I'm working on it, but it's going slow. So, I have a question. How many grams of fat are you supposed to intake in a day? I thought mine was kind of high for yesterday, but I realized that I really have no clue. I ate really good yesterday, but I did have some cake...I know, I wasn't supposed to, but it looked so good!! Oh well. It's gone now, so I don't have to worry about it until the end of March. My dad works out every day for two hours and he has lost 30 lbs. so far. I have asked him to be my personal trainer. He is going to send me his 4-day workout routine that he does so that I can have a plan when I go to the gym instead of going and getting frustrated when I can't figure out what to do. I'm probably not going to workout for two hours, but atleast I will be busy while I am at the gym.
Goals for today: -Take Emily shopping with her b-day money
- read scriptures - keep track of my food -laundry(ugh)

My new toy!

First of all, Thank you Jenna! I just got it last night and I have been reading the instructions so I can start using it today. I got a new Calorie counter to help me keep track of what I eat and how much I am eating....these were the encouraging words from my husband when I opened it " It will work as long as you are honest" Thanks honey. It is easy to cheat though. Today is another high day. I worked with my trainer and he killed killed killed me! He comes up witht he craziest exercises and I love it! I only have two more sessions with him, so I am going to write down everything I do with him so I can keep going. I have decided that I (and my neighbor) are going to do a tap number on my spring recital and I need to lose weight before I get up infront of everyone and dance.
Today is my Emily's 4th birthday, so I am going to make this a shprt post. I am spending the morning with her. I am going to fix her hair cute, paint her nails, and maybe go buy her a new shirt. She is such a joy in my life and I love her very much!
Goal for today: No Cake. I don't deserve it. Maybe by Audrey's birthday I can splurg.

It's just another Manic Monday...

...whoa a whoa....I don't wish it was Sunday! Well, weigh in day and I am still at 173, which is okay. I'm just glad that I am done gaining. I was almost lazy this morning, but then I remembered how I feel when I don't go to the gym and I jumped out of bed! I did a great ab and interval cardio workout this morning. Came home to my protein shake (I ditched the milk in it and added water to save on carbs and calories) and just finished 40 minutes and 175 burned calories on my Wii Fit. I also read my scriptures already. It's going to be a great day! I still haven't found my food journal, but I am going to start today anyway. I will just have to find a different note book. I set my new goal on my Wii Fit and I want to lose 22 lbs. by my birthday. That gives me 3 months people! I can do it. I just need to be stricter on my diet and push harder on my exercise. I'm sad because I think I might give up my p.t. for a while. We really should be using that money elsewhere, so I am going to think about it. It's not worth the money to only be working with him once a week. I feel like I hardly see him, but I will miss my kiler sessions with him....we'll see.
Goals for today: -Eat more veggies -Start my food journal -do my dishes!

Protein Bars

Okay, so I decided to lay off the protein bars for a while...Big Mistake! Now all I've been eating for my mid-meal snacks are whole packages of Graham crackers! I'm pretty sure the protein bars are much healthier and less calories, so I think I will be switching back to the bars. I can't help myself when we have graham crackers(I eat two at a time and dip them in milk...Yum!) but if I have a bar to fall back on, I could make it through the day. Yesterday I did fantastic until the cracker. I hate making stupid mistakes that can ruin my whole day and all of my efforts!
Everyone can be proud of me, I made it to the gym this morning. I haven't been to the gym on a saturday in a while and I loved it. There was no one there, so I could actually use the weights that I wanted to. I am going to add saturdays more regularly. It helps when you go to bed at 9 on a friday night...I am so lame now! I have a lot to do today, so I will see you next weigh in day. Don't count on my losing anything and My goal for today is to stay away from the graham crackers!

Rollercoaster...

..of love. I feel like I am on a rollercoaster. Somedays I am so pumped to kick butt and get in shape and then I have days like this where I could care less (not totally true) but I feel a little lazy. I didn't get to the gym because I was lazy. 3 of our kids got up at 3 and 4 this morning and at 4 I really had the urge to just get up and go to the gym, but I was just too lazy to do it. Isn't that sad? Now I am filled with regret because by the time 5 came, I was already back to sleep. I should have gone! It's like I completely sabatoge any efforts or accomplishments I have made. What is wrong with me? I am supposed to go out to dinner tonight, but all I want to do is stay home and walk on my tredmill....I don't think my husband is going to let me do that.
Goal for the day: No more eating. I've done okay, but I know that I will make bad choices if I let myself eat again. Water for dinner and maybe an apple.

No Carbs, No carbs, no Carbs

I haven't been writing in my food journal for a couple of weeks, so I think I need to start doing that again and I am cutting down my carbs. I know I should still have some, but the past couple of days I have let myself go and I haven't been eating as good as I should. I am going to be putting forth more effort to eat better and exercise more. I have noticed that I can go days without having any fruit other than my 3 strawberries in my protein shake. I've been having a bigger and later lunch, so I actually haven't had dinner this week. I just wasn't hungry. Last night I had an apple before going to bed. I really want to do the Flat Belly diet, but we need to wait until after this payday. I was looking at the recipes and I forgot how many vegetables and different fruits you get to eat.
Goals for today: -keep my food journal -find my food journal - gym(check) -30 min. on the tredmill -teach dance