Here I go again on my own...

...travel'n down the only road I've ever known! Seriously, that is how I feel today! I went to the gym and it was so crazy busy and I was just not motivated. I did 20 minutes on the tredmill and 15 on a bike (which was awesome) but I didn't lift any weights because it was so crowded! I ended up just going home. I miss doing step aerobics, or regular aerobics and tae bo. I always feel like I get a good workout when I do those things and the gym I go to just downsized and now doesn't offer any classes. Plus, now my husband wants to go play basketball in the mornings on Wed and Fri, which is great. Really, I want him to go. I might take this opportunity and use those two days to stay home and do some step aerobics or my favorite Tae Bo video. I need to switch it up so I don't get bored. I'm feeling a little bored with the gym.
My second change is that I am adding Saturdays to my workout days. It's the one day a week I wouldn't have to go in at 5, so why not? I went last saturday and it felt great and the gym wasn't crowded at all!
Goals for the day: -Get off the computer right now -go grocery shopping -read my scriptures -take a shower!

Oh boy

Well, I did it already..I gained back my 4 lbs. I just don't get it.

HCG diet

I am so sick and tired of hearing about the HCG diet! For those of you who don't know about it, it is this diet where you only eat 500 calories and then you can either do injections or drops of this hormone called HCG that supposedly makes your body attack the fat instead of the muscle while you are starving yourself...the only problem with this is that you can't exercise while you are on the diet. So, I have a friend who started it in October and she has already lost 40 lbs! It's disgusting and I looked into doing it, but I just don't feel good about it. I want to build muscle and be able to run and not be weary! I want to exercise! I want to eat more than 500 calories a day! I know the minute she stops the diet it's all going to come back, but it's so hard to see her get those fast results while I am still plugging along with almost no results! What is wrong with my body?! It is fighting so hard to hang on to this stupid weight and I just don't know what to do anymore. I have had the worst cravings this week and I have resisted, but I have been so darn hungry! I think I am doomed to stay this weight the rest of my life...Sorry for the pity party. I am just really frustrated tonight. Goals that I accomplished today..I made it to the gym. That is about it. I ate too much spaghetti for dinner and now I am probably going to gain my 4 lbs. back! AHHH!!!!!!

..The Earth says Hello!

I'm out of ideas for the titles of my daily blogs, so I'm choosing random song lyrics. Today I learned that on a scale from 1 to 10, my daily eating habits are at a 6, which is double what the average person is at...according to my trainer. That is good news. The bad news, this week has been so hard for some reason! I have had so many cravings and I have been so extra hungry! I think my body is trying to mess with me. Well, I am not going to give in! I did have some chips and salsa today for lunch and I just can't do that! My trainer wants me to start the Flat Belly Diet, which I started back in August. It's a really good diet and I wanted to stay on it, but my hubby was doing it with me and it's just too expensive for both of us. It is going to have to wait for a while anyway. Finances are running a little low this month after Christmas. Hopefully I can start up in Feb. with it. Well, as the day is almost over, I won't write my goals for the day. I did a lot, but also relaxed today. I did make it to the gym and I was sweating like crazy! Goodnight my faithful readers! I am off to have a protein shake for "dessert".

Good Morning Star Shine

It's a beautiful day in the neighborhood, a beautiful day in the neighborhood....
I made it to the gym and life is good..well, except for my tired children who have been screaming at me all morning, but other than that, I am doing good. Last night we went to our neighbors house to watch the Fiesta Bowl. I was bombarded with chips and candy! I resisted for the most part, but did indulge a little. It was not worth it at all! I don't know how I used to eat all that junk all the time! I really only had a handful of m'n'm's and I woke up so sick this morning! I love it! It means my body is getting healthier and is helping me remember how not worth it that junk is!
The gym this morning was packed! It's ridiculous how many people started their "New Year's Resolution" this morning. Hopefully by Feb. they give up and it won't be so crowded. Okay, that was kind of mean...Let's just hope that they decide to go at another time. That's better.
Goals for today: -gym (check!) -scriptures -I start teaching dance again today, so get the house clean for that -eat good!

Trying to get back

I am trying to get back into our old routine and it didn't really happen this morning. I was up until 1 last night with a headache, so I slept on the couch and I couldn't hear my alarm from the living room...so, no gym this morning. I still have a lot of pressure in my head, like I am going up in altitude or something. Strange. I need to take some Ibuprofen or something. I am still really happy about my weight lose so I am extra determined to do good today. I have a lot to plan for my dance classes this week and I want to be prepared. I will try to do the Wii today so I can get some exercise. I am not taking a nap today so I will be pooped out by bedtime tonight. I only allow myself one day a week to miss the gym and I really didn't want it to be today.
Goals for today: -Get ready for my classes this week -read my scriptures -eat super good
-do Wii Fit for atlease half an hour.

Weigh In

Okay, so I took a huge risk by weighing in on a Sunday.....and it was worth it! 171!!! Hurray!(Happy dance, happy dance, happy dance) I Finally lost some weight! It has been a long time and it felt good! I had to get on and off the scale a couple of times to make sure I was seeing it right! I was so shocked! 171 still is a huge number, but hopefully it keeps getting smaller! I can't give up! I did So good during the holidays and now I just have to make it through each day. These daily goals must be helping more than I thought!
Today was fast sunday, so my goal today is: -eat a good dinner with lots of protein
-No dessert with game night tonight -make a food list for the week
-fill out my food journal for the past couple of days that I have missed.